I'm not a big new years resolution guy, but I do find myself at this time of year reflecting upon where I've been, and where I want to go.  This year, I did about 17 shoots.  Met some great models, took some great photos (if I do say so myself), and generally had an all around good time.  I "published" a book that no one has purchased, re-did my website where I freely share most all of my photos.

So now, I find myself asking myself:  why?  I know I've brought this up in my journal before, but, now, here I am finished with my last shoot of the year, with no shoots planned for the future at all.  I am literally out of money for my "hobby", and seriously doubting why I do it at all.  I call it a hobby because I think it fits that description quite well.  I don't have the energy to make a living at it, or even to make it self sufficient, so therefore, that makes it a hobby in my book.

So, then I have to ask myself, why this hobby really?  I know most people (males especially) would say, WTF man?  What better hobby?  Getting to work with beautiful naked women and take awesome photos?  What's not to like?

Well, there is a back side to everything, and I'm not going to share it all here, but suffice it to say that it is literally, ripping me in half in some ways.  So, ya, I've said it before...and, here I am saying it again...things are really going to slow down this time...really!